- Mood:
Joy - Listening to: elliot yamin
Now i know na ang problema ay HINDI ako na iniwan mo, KUNDI ako, not relizing how big of a loser you are for leaving me out in the open, vulnerable, clueless.
Ang problema ay HINDI ako not being able to find ways to put you out of my routine, BUT ako not being able to remember the fact that i deserve better.
Like i said before, if you still remember that same night you gave me that lyrics, You treated me like shit. And though guilt creeped up on me while you tried to defend yourself, it was only last saturday when i paused..and snapped.. YES! you treated me like shit.
You totally knew it was comming but you led me on. And i'm not mad at you, i am disappointed with myself for not weighing things over before falling.
And its all good, its fine, coz its all part of the experience.
And i know you said i should wait for you
i could, but i WONT.
Because i have to protect myself from now on.
Because i love myself more than i love you. Just like how you love your pride more than you love yourself.
Because today. The 10th of September, 2007, after alot of talking and jose cuervo and dancing and after alot of my best friends' slapping and shouting at me inside the shower room,
I AM FINALLY FINALLY UNTANGLING MYSELF from your chains.
I AM RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR SHADOW, RUNNING AWAY SO FAST THAT IM AFRAID I'LL PUKE BUT I COULD CARE LESS BECAUSE IT FEELS SO FUCKING GOOD! THis is final, this is forever
THIS is BLISS
And not another romantic Ice Skating date can EVER ever make me change my mind.ü
I am your yum no more.